Random Thoughts of a Supersmock

I have been on Facebook since 2006.  It’s been an extremely useful tool for me to reconnect with so many wonderful people who have been in or are currently my life – long friends from primary, middle and high school, distant relatives living across the US and around the world, current friends and peers from church, work, school and the neighborhood.  How did we connect with all these wonderful people when we didn’t have Facebook? Being and extrovert – most people often know how I am ‘doing’ with just the expression on my face.   My co-workers know when I don’t agree with something or hold a difference of opinion.   I seem like a pretty open book to most people.   It’s true, I was the kid that danced on the kitchen table just to get a few laughs or threw the board game when I wasn’t winning.  And if you do that long enough – no one really takes you that serious and not many people ever stop to actually read your pages of your life....

I don’t really expect anyone to ever truly read my blog.   I don’t really publish many postings out there to sites where people would come to visit me here.   I am not famous or even highly interesting most days of my life.   I am not wise or smart.   My English and grammar are to be desired.   I know that I believe way too much in Capitalization, Commas and - Hyphens.   Honestly I don’t have anything really interesting to say most days.  I am just a girl struggling as much as the next person trying to figure out this crazy thing we call - life.  Every now and then, I have a thought that I just can’t keep hidden inside anymore.  We all got something to say every now and again, right?  So every now and again, I blog. I won’t lie, I have many unpublished postings.   I may have thought one day a posting would bring new meaning to my simple decent life, but they have become just another unfi...

When I first learned that our church was sending a group to 'babysit' kids in the Caribbean – I instantly wanted to be part of that.  The details made the trip even more and more enticing and I waited patiently to see if God would invite me to be part of the VBS team... and he did. It's true, I act like a pretty big kid most of the time.  I sing, dance, make a fool of myself many times within any given day.  Most adults are highly embarrassed to be seen with me, when I am in my fun loving kid mode.  But I tell you that childlike spirit was exactly what I needed for this special mission trip. For this trip, I was asked to lead the VBS classroom for the 5-6 year old missionary children, whose parents serve in Latin America and Africa.  I am very well diverse in middle schoolers but have survived raising two kids that once where the ages 5-6, so how hard could it be?  Let me start off to say, I have a new found respect for teachers of 5-6 year old...

After 15 years of marriage.. here are 15 random facts I have learned so far: 1. I married a sinner, so I have learned much about forgiveness and how to forgive.  However, he also married a sinner, so I have learned how to seek forgiveness and be reconciled.   I have cried many tears over sin that has affected my life.  Both His and my own.    If married you must be willing and able to forgive and ask for forgiveness, pretty much daily.  2. Having children is one of the most rewarding and selfless things you'll every "do" in life, but you have to remember your marriage came first.  I joke with my husband that we'll have each other again when the kids leave home, but that's not good enough.  Your marriage is more important than parenting.  Your kids will use your marriage and apply that to their lives... make it a true romance.   3. Communication is key.  If you don't talk, then walls will build and love can die.  Te...

Recently, my husband has really started worrying about a dear one.  This person in our lives hasn't really been able to find steady work, has a history of depression, and most importantly isn't walking with the Lord. It's easy to start judging yourself to others and what they have vs. what you have or don't have.   I know the song and dance oh so well, when I see it in my own life.  Yet, I am slowly starting to learn that what you need the most isn't a fluffy 401K or savings in the bank,  a big house in Preston County club, or a Executive job title that tells the world you are someone.  But, what you need the most is Jesus. "Yeah yeah, yeah they all say that right?"  But the truth is nothing else is more important in life than walking with him. We often look for the wrong things in life to make us happy - a lover, a friend, a drink, a vacation... I could go on forever.  I know often I find myself falling into the trap that "life is good" an...

It's simply does continue to amaze me how often I have doubt. I doubt so many things, and people.  I often don't give people the 'benefit of the doubt' and I am constantly waiting for the promises people make to be broken. I am just so full of doubt at times.  I am not really afraid, just cynical.  And all too often I doubt that God is going to take care of me (and specifically my family.) I am constantly uncertain about so many things but that's what makes me so human.   I  feel like I have been worn down to a rusty nail at times.   Having been criticized by parents and siblings,  Not being acknowledged for the special things I have done or accomplished, spending time with toxic people, or even being rejected by my peers and friends.  It starts small and gathers over time.   When you find your self in constant doubt, you become numb to the world.  I feel like I am here again and again and this is a constant battle...

So I decided to write a letter to my future son-in-law.  I know this is a bit odd, since my daughter is only 12, but I felt this strong desire to write a letter anyway to him anyway! Curious, how much I should share with the world.  I hope nothing happens to me in which I can't hand deliver, but for now I choose to keep the whole letter private.   Nevertheless, here are a few things my letter holds.  My letter begins with ...  Dear boy who will be the most important person in my daughter’s life,  In my letter I share with him personally who my daughter is (as of today  April 25, 2014)  I also share insider knowledge on what  what he needs to know most on how to love my daughter.  I know her more than she knows herself most days and I specifically know what it means to be a wife and a child of God. I go on to give him 10 key wisdom points. I tell him he must have or do to having a successful relationship with my...