CHA.... CHA... CHA... CHANGES

Over the few past weeks (maybe even a few months) my live has seen a variety of changes that will be soon taking place.

After 13 years ... we recently left our church and last month have started settling into a new one.

After 10+ years of employment ... I just have accepted a new job with a new company.

I have purged well over 2000 things in my home over the past two months in efforts to become less involved with things and more involved with life experiences.

I started blogging more and being more creative. Painting and playing and reading and learning.
I have found myself cutting out the things in my life that don't really hold value and reducing my overall stress levels.

I have unplugged from many social media sites and plugged into prayer and reading more. I started writing letters to old friends and recently rekindled writing in a journal.

I feel God leading me in new ways ... teaching me new things and changing my old heart all over again. It's nice and scary and I have often prayed to keep trusting HIM.

Change is so hard and so often we know that we want to or need to change. I think of the Sheryl Crow song often: A Change, A Change will do you good.

Sometimes it take a painful situation to make us change. Sometimes it's just discontentment. Sometimes it just happens and we aren't really why or how it came to be. I find the most comfort in knowing that no matter what changes occur in my life that I am willing and able because God is right there with me.

What are some things you want to change in your life and what's keeping you from doing it?

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