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It shouldn't amaze me that raising a teenage daughter is difficult... Most days it isn't and sometimes it's harder than giving birth to them.

My daughter has moments where she panics and allows anxiety to vester. She's terribly afraid that she's missing out on opportunities or is lacking in certain experiences.

She's plaqued with this fear that her whole life is determined by the here and now.  I can't fault her as I'm wired the same exact way at times.

In hindsight, I am able to see how my life had been broken out in chapters.  I know I haven't done a great job in some of those chapters.

Some chapters were very short.  Some very long and boring.  I'm enjoying my current one, but know even it will end at some point.

I would love for my daughter to see that her life can be a great adventure even just one chapter at a time.  The whole story isn't yet written...


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