Cog in the wheel

I wrote this blog title a few days ago.  No content just the title. 

Then I found out today our small/mid size company is being aquired by a big company.

My work life has been rather stressful lately and now things are starting to make sense why they are. I'm not sure what's really going to happen over the next few months or year.  So many uncertainties.

For every company I've ever worked for I always feel like just a cog in the wheel.

Minor... But necessary.

I've never played a major role in any of the  companies I've worked for and I have never been part of any major decisions.. just a simple little cog.

Now as we all brace ourselves for a big change, with many uncertainties. I certainly don't fear change as I'm all about growing and developing. 

If I'm honest this confirms a lot of things that I needed at this time in my life.

When I really reflect on this I believe realize, we are all cog's in God's kingdom.

Jesus told us we are all part of the body.  We all have different gifts and talents.  We may at times feel so minor.. but we're highly necessary.

God has a plan and purpose for all things and even when I begin to feel so minor I'm humbly reminded of his goodness.

Bulletproof

Just listen to the song Titanium (feat. Sia) by David Guetta.

It's a great techno song (next time you hear it try to listen just to the music.) Yet it does have some fun lyrics.

The line that sticks with me: "I'm bulletproof nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away.."

Even though he's fictional, It makes me think of Superman.. being actually bulletproof. 

I think of classic Superman comic of people shooting at him.  It makes Superman strong by just standing there taking everything that comes at him.

We may not shoot people with actual bullets but we do with our words and our hatred. I am reminded that there is so many people out there who are really trying to be bulletproof and not let these things hurt them so much.  However, I am pretty sure no one really can deflect everything thrown their way.  

  

Wouldn't it be great if we could be completely like Superman all the time.  Standing firm - Bulletproof!

What's a matter with you?

Last night I had another one of those "woe is me" conversation with my husband.  I know he just loves when I throw myself a pity-party.

They always stem from major stress or frustration.  Something going on in my life that I just can't control.

I know that my goal is to give all of that to God.  He's good.  He's faithful. 

But I can't seem to shake something's off.  Last night's conversation was around my favorite topic.. My job.

My husband tells me I focus too much on titles and money.  Hard not to do when you're in accounting.   He told me that what I make financially is how I measure success.

There is some truth to that, I'll admit. 

But as I read some different articles this morning, I realized that it's not about my title or how much money I make.. It's all about mattering. 

Woman (Maybe it's just me) are wired to want to mean something, have an influence, add value.. to matter.

What seems to be my biggest and current struggle is I don't feel like I make a difference or I'm not really living out my purpose.  One could say that's a spirit from God.. while others could say that's the devil on my back.

It's a struggle to balance it.  Am I meant for greater things or am I just supposed to live a quiet humble life...  Simple living and loving.

I don't have grand desire to rule the world or even travel it.. but I do have something telling me: I need to do more than what I'm currently doing. 

I just have to wait and see what that involves.

I know that we're all called to live for the Lord and that's really all that matters...

Can't rain all the time

It's been an unusual rainy summer this year.

I've never minded the rain.  I usually like a good summer thunderstorms every now and again. 

I was recently thinking about how our spiritual lives can really mimic the weather. 

Sometimes we shine so bright much like a warm spring or summer day. We live out our faith with bold colors and a cheerful simile.

Sometimes we just want to stay bundled up trying to warm like a chilly winter day.

Sometimes we go through blizzards, tornados or even hurricanes.  Everything is off, we can't seem to get out of a trial or tribulation.

And then there's just all the rainy days.  We know that the rain is critical in the plant cycle but at times we're tired of being wet and soggy.

God uses weather analogies throughout scripture, as he is the creator of it all.  Noah, Moses, Jonah etc... all had difficulties with weather.  He uses water just as often.  

Jesus was able to walk on water and tell the storm to stop... By telling it to hush

I know it can't rain all the time but sometimes no matter how many times we tell the storm to hush it's just keeps storming ...